One of a kind and all mine

I may not get to see you as often as I like, I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night; but deep in my heart I truly know; your the only I love & I cant let you go.

You have always been here for me whenever I needed you since day 1. You and I have been through the best and the worst times but we always managed to still grow. I know I can always count on you and tell you all about my day. You always know the right words to say when I’m down. You are the only one that can see the sadness behind the smile I have. You never give up on us even when things get so ugly. There are times when I take advantage of what you do for me, and yet you’re still around. I know I bring up the past way more than I should, but not to hurt you just because it was a very hard time in my life. You have proven to me that you are everything that I have ever wanted. You are truly my prince charming. You’re more than good to me and I know you would give me the world if you could. You never fail to put a smile on my face. Even though I get mad and say things I really don’t mean just know that I will always love you and I wouldn’t trade you for the world. I love that you take care of me and do everything you could possibly do to make sure I’m ok. You and I have a special kind of relationship that I could never see my self EVER having with anyone else. You’re the type of person you meet once in a lifetime. A person that has a huge heart and gives and never asks for anything in return. You beautiful inside and out. I love that you love children just like me. I never thought I could find someone as perfect as you. You’re the missing puzzle piece in my life. With you in my life I am complete. I love that you never give up. You keep going for higher achievements and you motivate me more than anyone to reach the moon with you. There are times when things get so rough in my life and all I can do is just break down and shatter like a piece of glass. But you hold me together. You are the reason I am still standing on my two feet. You are the reason I am busting my butt in school and trying harder than I have ever tried in my life. You are one big part in helping me grow up and appreciate the right things in life. I love that you always keep my head straight. As soon as I get to a path that has multiple ways you show me the right way. I can trust you with my life. I love you more than anything. You are the sunshine to my day baby. I love you Riley Jacob Calderon from the tip of my toes past the stars in the sky. Thank you for all that you do for me baby.

Sucks being the older one

Sometimes we go through hard times and all you want to do is block out anything and everything. You don’t want to talk about it, you don’t want it to keep you from having a good day. You hold it all in and once it builds up enough you blow it out on the ones you love the most…

I love my parents with everything I have but sometimes I just don’t feel that they understand me. They tell me over and over your going to wish you listen to us with some of the decisions you choose to make, but they don’t realize that I have to learn on my own and maybe it turned out bad for them but I’m different. I’m a whole different person and this is a different time. I feel like they judge everything just based on the way they lived and how they were when they were young. What they don’t realize is that my life is way different than the way they lived when they were my age. They are already married when they were my age. I know they want to have me learn from their mistakes but I’m the type of person that learns from my own mistakes. But who is to say this is a mistake? Who is to say what is right or wrong? I’m a traditional girl but not everything I do has to be that way. What if I feel this is the best move for me? What if this will make me a stronger person? It could teach me a better lesson than I could learn from them? I’m a lot smarter than they think I am. Sometimes I don’t think they realize that. If I felt at all inside my heart I would not be choosing what I have decided to do. I’m the type of girl that goes with her gut feeling. And I am very good at it. I get it from my dad. I am a strong girl and I know how to take care of my self. I have always been tough since I was little. I know what is right from wrong. I have made mistakes in the past but I always learned from them. This is just a step in life that I want to take now, it may not be in the order that they feel is “traditional” but its something I want to do. They have many points, but the thing is I have already thought about it all. I’m growing up and I don’t think they see that. Or maybe they just don’t want me to, so its kind of holding me back. I am the oldest and they have no idea what it’s going to feel like. I’m the one they experience everything with for the first time. They are learning through me too. I guess Mikey will have the easy life because they will already know what to expect thanks to me. But I guess it is just going to take time and I just have to be patient. These days it’s ok to do what I am choosing to do. But they don’t know that. I have my reasons why I want to do it. And to be honest I have my mind made already, so I guess we will see how it all goes from here.

A room needs to stay clean

When you have a dirty room you have always been told to clean it. Once you
Clean it, it feels so good! Just to lay in your bed and see the floor and be able to find everything you look for. But little by little in the morning when you get dressed everyday it gets dirty from one shirt you decide not to wear or one Pair of shoes you didnt put alway from the day before. Before you know it it's a mess again. It takes time to really keep up with it. It will go on for a while with being clean but then, let's be honest we get lazy, and it just becomes a mess all over again! Then you find yourself cleaning it all over again, this time you throw out everything you wanted to save the last time you cleaned, now you realized you really don't need it. It was just taking up useful space. Well if you think about it love and relationships are the same thing!

The Beginning.

My mom told me about this today and how it to use it, which was very funny because I am usually the one who always lets her know about the new sites. But I am very happy that she showed me! I am so excited to start this. I always have so much on my mind whether it be new quotes or some things I have on mind that I need to write out. I love journals but could never actually keep them, i always loose it or just don't really have to time to sit and write. But now I can update more often because it can update on my phone!! yay!
Cant wait to get started!!